You called yesterday
to basically say
that you care for me but
that you just not in love
Immediately I pretended to be
feeling similarly
And led you believe I was OK
To just walk away from the one thing
That's unyeilding and sacred to me
Well I guess I'm trying to be
nonchalant about it
And I guess I'm going to extreme
that I'm fine without you
But in reality I'm slowly losing my mind
Underneath the guise of smile gradually I'm dying inside
Friends ask me how I feel and I lie convincingly
'Cause I don't want to reveal the fact that I'm suffering
So I wear my disguise 'till I go home at night
And turn down all the lights and then I breakdown and cry
So what you do when
somebody you're devoted to
Suddenly just stops lovin' you and it seems they haven't got a clue
Of the pain that rejection is putting you through
Do you cling to your pride
and sing " I will survive"
Do you lash out and say
" How dare you leave this way"
Do you hold on in vain as they just slip away
Well I guess I'm trying to be
nonchalant about it
And I guess I'm going to
extreme that I'm fine without you
But in reality I'm slowly losing my mind
Underneath the guise of smile gradually I'm dying inside
Friends ask me how I feel
and I lie convincingly
'Cause I don't want to reveal the fact that I'm suffering
So I wear my disguise 'till I go home at night
And turn down all the lights and then I breakdown and cry
Well I guess I'm trying to be
nonchalant about it
And I guess I'm going to extreme
that I'm fine without you
But in reality I'm slowly losing my mind
Underneath the guise of smile gradually I'm dying inside
Friends ask me how I feel and I lie convincingly
'Cause I don't want to reveal the fact that I'm suffering
So I wear my disguise 'till I go home at night
And turn down all the lights and then I breakdown and cry
Well I guess I'm trying to be
nonchalant about it
And I guess I'm going to extreme
that I'm fine without you
But in reality I'm slowly losing my mind
Underneath the guise of smile gradually I'm dying inside
Friends ask me how I feel and I lie convincingly
'Cause I don't want to reveal the fact that I'm suffering
So I wear my disguise 'till I go home at night
And turn down all the lights and then I breakdown and cry